Learning to find yourself while struggling with depression and a lack of self-worth is challenging. As a young adult, A. Jones thought her path in life was set on a straight line that wouldn’t deviate. She enrolled at Brigham Young University just like everyone else in her family, and her future was clear. But…life had a different plan.

She never imagined the war within herself as she suffered through challenges she never anticipated on an unforeseeable journey to finding her true self-identity. As a young Mormon, women are told what to think and believe, but her actual experiences were different. Her relationship with her extended family became strained, and the dating world shocked her compared to the chaste expectation of every young LDS virgin. Each decision she made thrust her further into depression until she completely lost herself. Anthems of an Apostate is a coming-of-age memoir about rebuilding from rock bottom when religion lets you down.